Not my day today
Feel like breaking down and cry
I don't deserve any cheer up from anyone, it has always been my fault, everyone hates me, my attitude sucks! My mum even nagged me and called me, something that i don't wish to hear frm her mouth, yes she always did that on me, not with any other sister, but only on me. Yes ok, i talk back to her, but only to let her know that she's wrong, there goes.. But compare me and kak mira, she ALWAYS talk back to mum, but no, she didnt get nagged back like i do. I have always been the worst in her eyes ok, since idk when. I dunno whats the problem, ok, senang kate, bias, ok kak warda has always been the much better daughter compared to the rest, did she nag at her if she dint do any house work? Did she nag at her for always on her comp or phone? Did she nag at her if the room is messy, when only her stuff were all messed up? NO? Yes, only at me! Yea im not that understanding or caring to mum like she do, its just not me, but i did tried my best to make her happy, but, she only can see the worst side of me. I really hope that she take her time to realise that not all that happened around her invovles me. Its unfair for me for being threated like this ok. I just dont get it ok.
Nenek not gonna be staying with us anm too. This is just sooo ......
Having Period cramp at this kind of Situation is just the worst timing of all.
Chingu wasnt there when i need him.
I wanna break down and cry the whole day if can. Ya Allah. Idk wht to do now.
Hais....
Its just not my day
Bye...
😭😢
Saturday, December 22, 2012
Monday, December 17, 2012
Moody Monday
Everyone just freaking pissed me off amsyar suk chingu damnit eh korang malas sia nak pikir aku pikir nenek aku yang cute ni lagi bagus im too much of getting hurt alr its time to move on and forget everything i dont feel appreciated here fine im just being me no one can change me fug u ppl ok im so pissed now its time for me to let go and dont wanna get hurt again i know wht goes around comes around i too wanna be happy ok. Sorry guise.
Im having my moodswing now, i wanna put this down. Damnit i feel so upset now, hais.
Bye.
Nenek, here i come, looking at nenek can make me happy alr.
~hyq
'if you treat me like a friend, stay and dont go, cause im still keeping your promise..
Im having my moodswing now, i wanna put this down. Damnit i feel so upset now, hais.
Bye.
Nenek, here i come, looking at nenek can make me happy alr.
~hyq
'if you treat me like a friend, stay and dont go, cause im still keeping your promise..
BestFemaleCamperSehy!
Haluhalu!
Been 3D2N at camp in Changi Moe Campsite! 4pm Integration camp was awesome! Learnt alot new things! Aww, now i miss being a princess in BubbleBlue! Kena jadi bahan jugak ni, alahais. and im the one whose the loudest and the most hyper in the camp among all the 6 girls. Mana tak jadi best female camper! And the best thing too, BubbleBlue won 3rd for all the activities there! its ok, very good. And plus, 3 members from BubbleBlue won individual award too, Syazwan as 'The Talkative Camper', Haikal (Iqbal) as 'The Coolest Camper' and me, 'The Best Female Camper' . Teeheees, very good! Best thing is, dorang nye award is: Tissue box and sepit baju.. HAHAH! Mcm kureng gitu, ade dapat Boxygon, folk. HAHAH! Lawaklawak! Best female and male dapat Chocolate!!!!
Rindu,:
Syazwan, Shahiran, Iqbal, Faruq, Sukri our faci: Atiqah and Razak!
Hehs! I can't wait for another 4pm event, which is the Night Adventure, that, really, i have to go!! Hehe! Much miss them kays.! Hais.
Beh campmate sumer tanak msg2, carik aku kat twitter ke, add at fb ke ? Hais, tkpe ahk. Hahaha! Aite!
Anws, fought with chingu again, cus i forever is jellywelly. Now he tanak friend wimme again. Lahais. Tkpelah, hope he ok k. Sorry Ching, love u k.
Thats all! Hehs!
-hyq
Been 3D2N at camp in Changi Moe Campsite! 4pm Integration camp was awesome! Learnt alot new things! Aww, now i miss being a princess in BubbleBlue! Kena jadi bahan jugak ni, alahais. and im the one whose the loudest and the most hyper in the camp among all the 6 girls. Mana tak jadi best female camper! And the best thing too, BubbleBlue won 3rd for all the activities there! its ok, very good. And plus, 3 members from BubbleBlue won individual award too, Syazwan as 'The Talkative Camper', Haikal (Iqbal) as 'The Coolest Camper' and me, 'The Best Female Camper' . Teeheees, very good! Best thing is, dorang nye award is: Tissue box and sepit baju.. HAHAH! Mcm kureng gitu, ade dapat Boxygon, folk. HAHAH! Lawaklawak! Best female and male dapat Chocolate!!!!
Rindu,:
Syazwan, Shahiran, Iqbal, Faruq, Sukri our faci: Atiqah and Razak!
Hehs! I can't wait for another 4pm event, which is the Night Adventure, that, really, i have to go!! Hehe! Much miss them kays.! Hais.
Beh campmate sumer tanak msg2, carik aku kat twitter ke, add at fb ke ? Hais, tkpe ahk. Hahaha! Aite!
Anws, fought with chingu again, cus i forever is jellywelly. Now he tanak friend wimme again. Lahais. Tkpelah, hope he ok k. Sorry Ching, love u k.
Thats all! Hehs!
-hyq
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Hate it when i woke up from a PRECIOUS DREAM
Sooo, last night i had a fight w chingu, and i don't know what is wrong w him! He kept nagging at me otp, dalah sound like chinaman, hp rosak tak dengar. He said he's dissapointed w girls like me nowadays, wth man???? Then he keep ungkit2 abt last time. I know la i always so bossy and stuff, but dah terjadi whutt. Hais😔
So after the fight i hungup the phone and continued watching SMTown concert in SEOUL. Soo dissapointed that i had to stop at Shinee's part performing Sherlock, because ipod battery drained out. And, i went to sleep.
Sooo my dream went like.........
I was in the building (the same building i dreamt last time) looking for Fairul's house. I think i have to return him some CD i borrowed. (OK I DO NOT GET THIS PART). Blahh..blahh..blahh..
cut to --
Chingu invited me to Smtown concert. I do not know where he got the tix but im pretty sure that its not in SG. Because the concert was in a BIG HALL, where there is seats everwhr, only one small stage, more to like the one i watched, except its indoor and its a hall.
So we was queuing for seats, and unfortunately we get to sit at a few chairs away from the back door of the hall. We watched and cheered each and every grp that performed, but when it comes to SHINee's performance, i was pulled out of my seat, and go on stage because I WAS THE LUCKY ONE WHO GET TO PERFORM WITH THEM ON STAGE. !! OMGOD! Can imagine that????!!
So, onstage we danced and sing together, and suddenly, they started to sing this song that i don't know. And i stayed at one corner Cause i have no idea on what song they're singing and dancing to, then ONEW was like looking at me with that "what are you doing" face. Imagine getting picked to perform on stage w ur idol, and when ure on stage, they were singing and dancing to songs u never heard of. Confirm malu right? On stage sumore, when ppl looking. Haha, so, i go off the stage and a woman came to me and wanted to send me back to my seats, otw down the stage i saw smartist in a room, i guess its the backstage room for the artist to rest and stuff, so i begged the woman to let me go in the room, so she let me.
When i went into the room, i saw adil. Idky he was there! Haha. Then i saw EUNHYUK walking pass me to the other room, and behind him was my TEACHeR??? Haha, so i asked him why is he here, he said that EUNHYUK gve free smtown tix to him! So he is a friend of EUNHYUK! Omg, my wouldve been better with the thought that My teacher would intro me to EUNHYUK! OMG!
And that is when my dream ended, i woke up cause my mum's voice is too loud. Hais. But, good ending though. Haha. Still! I wish it could happen. Sekali if betul happened, eunhyuk jadi my bf! OMG!!! Hahah! Takle pcaya ! Haha.
Well its just a dream ya.. 😔😞😖😨😣😣😭
Its ok...
So gonna go to school and study Then off to TAG in the evening.
Maybe i should text chingu later. I hope he's feeling alright now.
Alright!
Adios
Hyq~
So after the fight i hungup the phone and continued watching SMTown concert in SEOUL. Soo dissapointed that i had to stop at Shinee's part performing Sherlock, because ipod battery drained out. And, i went to sleep.
Sooo my dream went like.........
I was in the building (the same building i dreamt last time)
cut to --
Chingu invited me to Smtown concert. I do not know where he got the tix but im pretty sure that its not in SG. Because the concert was in a BIG HALL, where there is seats everwhr, only one small stage, more to like the one i watched, except its indoor and its a hall.
So we was queuing for seats, and unfortunately we get to sit at a few chairs away from the back door of the hall. We watched and cheered each and every grp that performed, but when it comes to SHINee's performance, i was pulled out of my seat, and go on stage because I WAS THE LUCKY ONE WHO GET TO PERFORM WITH THEM ON STAGE. !! OMGOD! Can imagine that????!!
So, onstage we danced and sing together, and suddenly, they started to sing this song that i don't know. And i stayed at one corner Cause i have no idea on what song they're singing and dancing to, then ONEW was like looking at me with that "what are you doing" face. Imagine getting picked to perform on stage w ur idol, and when ure on stage, they were singing and dancing to songs u never heard of. Confirm malu right? On stage sumore, when ppl looking. Haha, so, i go off the stage and a woman came to me and wanted to send me back to my seats, otw down the stage i saw smartist in a room, i guess its the backstage room for the artist to rest and stuff, so i begged the woman to let me go in the room, so she let me.
When i went into the room, i saw adil. Idky he was there! Haha. Then i saw EUNHYUK walking pass me to the other room, and behind him was my TEACHeR??? Haha, so i asked him why is he here, he said that EUNHYUK gve free smtown tix to him! So he is a friend of EUNHYUK! Omg, my wouldve been better with the thought that My teacher would intro me to EUNHYUK! OMG!
And that is when my dream ended, i woke up cause my mum's voice is too loud. Hais. But, good ending though. Haha. Still! I wish it could happen. Sekali if betul happened, eunhyuk jadi my bf! OMG!!! Hahah! Takle pcaya ! Haha.
Well its just a dream ya.. 😔😞😖😨😣😣😭
Its ok...
So gonna go to school and study Then off to TAG in the evening.
Maybe i should text chingu later. I hope he's feeling alright now.
Alright!
Adios
Hyq~
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Cheyy, DATE ehy? Haha
date w Chingu jyeah!
What else? SUSHI!!!!!!!!!
Mmmdaaaapppp!
Then went to his house watch RM again!
This time, get to laugh allout!
Had fun yahhh!
Hmmm, comeone ching, i want one more date yahh!! This time must surprise me with......... KINDERMIX!!!
Ok? Love you! Haha!
Haha? Well, that dude still can't find my blogspot ya. Haha.
Ok, loveyoutoo chingu😘💋
Hyqi~
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Have a safe journey SM artists
Atlast, smtown has ended.
No more sad.
I don't wanna cry anm cause i wasnt there watching them perform the first time on stage in SG!
Life gonna move on. One day, that very one day, im gonna meet them personally, without going for their concerts and whatsoever. My dream is to be friend w them.. Haha, k. Lame. But who knows right. InsyaAllah. But alhamdulillah kalau akan terjadi. YA ALLAH? Cannot imagine sia if i were to befriends w all of them! Haha
With all those emotional breakdown happening to me the last fewdays, i totally forgot that 22Nov was MrD's birthday. I suspect he's been waiting fr me to wish him. Hais, such a bad friend huh? WAEIYOOO???
But, i hope he could forgive me. Its not that i purposely forgot, but im just going tru emotionalBD and cant control, i cant think of anything else besides Sm! Hais. Forgive me ya?!
Soo, the SMs now preparing for smtown in Thailand now! WHOUUO i hope they had alot of fun in Here. Especially Hyoyeon, Eunhyuk, Suho and Chen! My darlings!!
Hmm..
Peace yo!✌
Bye
No more sad.
I don't wanna cry anm cause i wasnt there watching them perform the first time on stage in SG!
Life gonna move on. One day, that very one day, im gonna meet them personally, without going for their concerts and whatsoever. My dream is to be friend w them.. Haha, k. Lame. But who knows right. InsyaAllah. But alhamdulillah kalau akan terjadi. YA ALLAH? Cannot imagine sia if i were to befriends w all of them! Haha
With all those emotional breakdown happening to me the last fewdays, i totally forgot that 22Nov was MrD's birthday. I suspect he's been waiting fr me to wish him. Hais, such a bad friend huh? WAEIYOOO???
But, i hope he could forgive me. Its not that i purposely forgot, but im just going tru emotionalBD and cant control, i cant think of anything else besides Sm! Hais. Forgive me ya?!
Soo, the SMs now preparing for smtown in Thailand now! WHOUUO i hope they had alot of fun in Here. Especially Hyoyeon, Eunhyuk, Suho and Chen! My darlings!!
Hmm..
Peace yo!✌
Bye
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Don't stress me out, i just wanna watch PITCHPERFECT
Hmm, mind my latest post, it supposed to be published last week, but ended up its in my draft. Haha BABO!
So hello! I woke up at 14.20 today, and i slept on the floor. Gave Mardrasah a missed, why, because i badass i like that! Haha, nahh, im just tired+ i overslept ok!
Yesterday, suppose to be my best day ever, since i've submitted my FYP, ontime, and i no need to stress out anm. Only that i really hope that presentation will be going smoothly, amin! But then tummy gave problem. Haha. Then watched RM w amsyar at le lib while waiting fr MrD to fetch me as he asked me out for a movie date. Aite, PITCH PERFECT !!
Soo, everything was alright at the begining. But when MrD started to ask me abt my blog, whoa, my STRESS camebck. Cmon. Its just my blog why do u have to be soo sensitive abt it. I made him cry, MORE STRESS! Like whoa! I really dunno what to do or say, i just want everything to be ok, and us to have fun since i dont need to stress abt my fyp anm. So i just kept quiet., we went around Jcube, and he kept quiet all the way. And im just gonna go w the flow then. Then he started to shout at me, like seriously, u wanna start a fight again? DOUBLE MORE STRESS, Kau apalagi i had enough sia, dont care alr, go toilet stay there, cause i was soo pissed off and my day couldnt get any worst. Tsk3. So i went out , met him, masuk theater, and he gave me this baby blue care bear. Haix, like seriously, i dont need a bear to cheer me up. Besides, i have TOO many carebears at home alr, especially the blue one. Soo, ok, watch PITCH PERFECT, atlast something that can cheer me up!
And it WAS SUPERBLY AWESOME! I missed TAG alot! I miss singing acapella! Guess that i have to comebck cause i've finished my FYP.
Well, we kept quiet all the way to JE INT, i told him no need teman me home, but still, despite the Fight we had, i still thanked him for today, atleast a pitch perfect can really cheer myself up. Thanks D.
Well, that should be all fr yest, now, i wanna go back sleep k!
Goodnight!
So hello! I woke up at 14.20 today, and i slept on the floor. Gave Mardrasah a missed, why, because i badass i like that! Haha, nahh, im just tired+ i overslept ok!
Yesterday, suppose to be my best day ever, since i've submitted my FYP, ontime, and i no need to stress out anm. Only that i really hope that presentation will be going smoothly, amin! But then tummy gave problem. Haha. Then watched RM w amsyar at le lib while waiting fr MrD to fetch me as he asked me out for a movie date. Aite, PITCH PERFECT !!
Soo, everything was alright at the begining. But when MrD started to ask me abt my blog, whoa, my STRESS camebck. Cmon. Its just my blog why do u have to be soo sensitive abt it. I made him cry, MORE STRESS! Like whoa! I really dunno what to do or say, i just want everything to be ok, and us to have fun since i dont need to stress abt my fyp anm. So i just kept quiet., we went around Jcube, and he kept quiet all the way. And im just gonna go w the flow then. Then he started to shout at me, like seriously, u wanna start a fight again? DOUBLE MORE STRESS, Kau apalagi i had enough sia, dont care alr, go toilet stay there, cause i was soo pissed off and my day couldnt get any worst. Tsk3. So i went out , met him, masuk theater, and he gave me this baby blue care bear. Haix, like seriously, i dont need a bear to cheer me up. Besides, i have TOO many carebears at home alr, especially the blue one. Soo, ok, watch PITCH PERFECT, atlast something that can cheer me up!
And it WAS SUPERBLY AWESOME! I missed TAG alot! I miss singing acapella! Guess that i have to comebck cause i've finished my FYP.
Well, we kept quiet all the way to JE INT, i told him no need teman me home, but still, despite the Fight we had, i still thanked him for today, atleast a pitch perfect can really cheer myself up. Thanks D.
Well, that should be all fr yest, now, i wanna go back sleep k!
Goodnight!
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Insomnia😢😣😖😞😓
Its 1.45. I cant sleep. I keep thinking of Chingu. How could he? I need him, but where is he? Im just dissapointed and sad cause i thought that he would always be there for me eventhough he has a gf, and im his chingu. I keep thinking that he used me and treat me like a toy. Why? I trust him alot, i've forgiven his past doings. But why he left me just like that? I cant stop thinking? Where is he? Why he dint reply me? He dont need me anymore? He dont care about me anymore? Why is he ignoring me? He's trying to avoid me? Fishing tell me what did i do wrong? I only told him that i was dissapointed cause he ignored me in sch.
Chingu , i would always say this to myself after sending u a message,
"if he is meant to be my bestfriend forever, he would reply to this text, if he's not, then he will regret after what he did and come back to me, but at that point, i'll surely forgotten about him ",
Last night you replied, but then till now u dint, so i dont wanna say anything. Im not sure of what is going happen later in the future. But Till now i have the urge of texting u, but inside me said i have to be patience, replied u twice, but both u dint reply.
Well, Only Allah knows, and only He knows how i feel now.
Its ok if i had to cry every night, i did that when we first broke up too. So now, i've got to stay strong and endure, insyaAllah, Allah is always there for me. He'll Make me strong enough to handle this problem, Amin.
Bad english, dry eyes, period cramp, badmood.
Im just tired.
Goodnight.
Chingu , i would always say this to myself after sending u a message,
"if he is meant to be my bestfriend forever, he would reply to this text, if he's not, then he will regret after what he did and come back to me, but at that point, i'll surely forgotten about him ",
Last night you replied, but then till now u dint, so i dont wanna say anything. Im not sure of what is going happen later in the future. But Till now i have the urge of texting u, but inside me said i have to be patience, replied u twice, but both u dint reply.
Well, Only Allah knows, and only He knows how i feel now.
Its ok if i had to cry every night, i did that when we first broke up too. So now, i've got to stay strong and endure, insyaAllah, Allah is always there for me. He'll Make me strong enough to handle this problem, Amin.
Bad english, dry eyes, period cramp, badmood.
Im just tired.
Goodnight.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Presentation and CRUSHINTOPIECEOBIA
Ehyyoo! Presentation of our first cut was trulyy "ohmyeffingtummyacheandiwannagoandpee" kinda thing
Ya, soo, too much story from zo, *dugh
But the funny thing was, before we present, when the other grp was presenting i cant stop thinking of my trip to USS!
Shuuut its been 2 days alr, freaking miss uss dude! UKNOWTHAT!
Thanks to afiqmokie(abg).
Soo, about the reshoot thingy, zo asked me to ask MrYasmin abt the EQ thigy and ya we went to the other side of the block. So ahgirl, and shankar was with me, and i saw three guys from my 'crush' class(uknowiRABON), soo, i was talking to ahgirl abt what happened yest(crushfollowedmebackontwitter), and suddenly she ask "is that him?" OHMY, it was him, i dint notice it was him. That three guy walking towards us.
Haiyz, they were at the vending machine, so then we walk back slowly at the locker, i notice, they walk slowly too, OHMYGOD what is happening, then when they passed us, 'crush' kena punch on the chest by one of his friend,( ithinktheywerejokingaround), and i glanced and i saw His eyes, looking at me, OHMY! Eventhough it was dark there, but i can see it. He's smiling when kena punch, and he look at me, still, WHATISHAPPENING?!!
Did he like me too?? No?? Haiyzz. Why give me hope?? He make me think he like me uknow. HaiyZzzzz...
Ya, soo, too much story from zo, *dugh
But the funny thing was, before we present, when the other grp was presenting i cant stop thinking of my trip to USS!
Shuuut its been 2 days alr, freaking miss uss dude! UKNOWTHAT!
Thanks to afiqmokie(abg).
Soo, about the reshoot thingy, zo asked me to ask MrYasmin abt the EQ thigy and ya we went to the other side of the block. So ahgirl, and shankar was with me, and i saw three guys from my 'crush' class(uknowiRABON), soo, i was talking to ahgirl abt what happened yest(crushfollowedmebackontwitter), and suddenly she ask "is that him?" OHMY, it was him, i dint notice it was him. That three guy walking towards us.
Haiyz, they were at the vending machine, so then we walk back slowly at the locker, i notice, they walk slowly too, OHMYGOD what is happening, then when they passed us, 'crush' kena punch on the chest by one of his friend,( ithinktheywerejokingaround), and i glanced and i saw His eyes, looking at me, OHMY! Eventhough it was dark there, but i can see it. He's smiling when kena punch, and he look at me, still, WHATISHAPPENING?!!
Did he like me too?? No?? Haiyzz. Why give me hope?? He make me think he like me uknow. HaiyZzzzz...
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Congrats my love <\3
Hi, its been soo long since i last post this.
Well i got no one to share this with.
I can't stop thinking this but cry. And that is where i should start posting this, cause
hais, i couldnt take it anymore, no one, not even him knows what im facing. Hais
P.s, mind my english, cause it sucks and i'm still crying now.
It started out okay in the morning.. Got my nail done by ahgirl,
Pewdiepie w faruq, lepak w amsyar at library, but the next thing i found out,
Nat and him wasnt in class? So i was worried and sarcasticly text him whether he's having dating or something and then
My heart sanked and i cant barely breathe. He told me that they were skating together and well,
Nat accepted him as her boyfriend.....:'(
Well, i tried my best to not cry as amsyar was beside me, im thankful that he was
there, i gotta be strong as i know that Amsyar is one of my most best buddies who would cheer me up
when im feeling down.
So went to JP with him to find snowcap for his cousin, but we only saw the blue one which is my favourite! Endup, tak jadi belik, so went up to comics collection and HELL NO!
I CRIED CAUSE IT WAS UNDER RENOVATION!!! SHIT HATE THIS! That was the very first place i would go window shopping alone. Hais, now no more whic shop to go??? Walk around window shopping everywhere, and amsyar bought for me famous amos cookie and chocolate box, Kinder Friends!! Hais, waiting for that someone to give me the big one? I dont think i would get that. So he bought for me grape juice cus i was so thirsty. Hmm, without him by my side, i don't think i would'nt be able to control any tears flowing from my eyes. I wanna thank him for always being by myself when i feel down, eventhough he did not know anything about me and 'him' but he's always there for me.
But that was just temporary happiness with him, when it comes me being alone in my this room make me think about him again, and still i cant stop crying (still crying),. Why did i even give hope and trust him, all i get is heartbroken. Why did he do this to me? Why did he come back to me eventhough he hurt me alot in the past. Why did i trust him and let him come to my life in the first place? Why am i so weak? Why did i always get betrayed? Why can't i forget him after he left me hanging? I would always seek help for Allah swt, if i and him were not meant to be, please erase him off my mind. And now i gotta get strong . I don't wanna cry over the same damn thing.
Tomorrow is his bday? And i bet he's happy now, but not me.
Im sorry i gotta end here, i can't stop crying. :'((
Goodnight.
Well i got no one to share this with.
I can't stop thinking this but cry. And that is where i should start posting this, cause
hais, i couldnt take it anymore, no one, not even him knows what im facing. Hais
P.s, mind my english, cause it sucks and i'm still crying now.
It started out okay in the morning.. Got my nail done by ahgirl,
Pewdiepie w faruq, lepak w amsyar at library, but the next thing i found out,
Nat and him wasnt in class? So i was worried and sarcasticly text him whether he's having dating or something and then
My heart sanked and i cant barely breathe. He told me that they were skating together and well,
Nat accepted him as her boyfriend.....:'(
Well, i tried my best to not cry as amsyar was beside me, im thankful that he was
there, i gotta be strong as i know that Amsyar is one of my most best buddies who would cheer me up
when im feeling down.
So went to JP with him to find snowcap for his cousin, but we only saw the blue one which is my favourite! Endup, tak jadi belik, so went up to comics collection and HELL NO!
I CRIED CAUSE IT WAS UNDER RENOVATION!!! SHIT HATE THIS! That was the very first place i would go window shopping alone. Hais, now no more whic shop to go??? Walk around window shopping everywhere, and amsyar bought for me famous amos cookie and chocolate box, Kinder Friends!! Hais, waiting for that someone to give me the big one? I dont think i would get that. So he bought for me grape juice cus i was so thirsty. Hmm, without him by my side, i don't think i would'nt be able to control any tears flowing from my eyes. I wanna thank him for always being by myself when i feel down, eventhough he did not know anything about me and 'him' but he's always there for me.
But that was just temporary happiness with him, when it comes me being alone in my this room make me think about him again, and still i cant stop crying (still crying),. Why did i even give hope and trust him, all i get is heartbroken. Why did he do this to me? Why did he come back to me eventhough he hurt me alot in the past. Why did i trust him and let him come to my life in the first place? Why am i so weak? Why did i always get betrayed? Why can't i forget him after he left me hanging? I would always seek help for Allah swt, if i and him were not meant to be, please erase him off my mind. And now i gotta get strong . I don't wanna cry over the same damn thing.
Tomorrow is his bday? And i bet he's happy now, but not me.
Im sorry i gotta end here, i can't stop crying. :'((
Goodnight.
Saturday, June 02, 2012
My Best end-of-may!
Yellow!
Well, im gonna talk about what happened yesterday!
Thursday,31st May2012
Omg, yesterday was like the best day ever!
Haha,
First, class suppose to start at 8am, but endup, i came at 10zz
Hahah, i was fasting and i missed sahur + i din't eat anything the night before.
Damn hungry that day k. Soo, when reach sch, friends said that i just wasted my time
Coming to sch. Soo, whatever.
So, we have this audio workshop, but i din't go for that.
1) i went to meet my art buddies! Amsyar and Ramdan.. Lepak in their classroom. Their mate mcm zoo!
Hahah! I love it! They all ery funny daaa! Haha. Had fun with them!
Then,after class we got nothing to do, we went to the lib to lepak while wait until 6.30z
Cause i have TAG. -.-"
I had fun with them ok! Haha
2)Soo, for practice, we learnt new arrangement! OHMYGOD! ATLAST K!
And we learnt Somebody I Used To Know!
Abit confuse but its ok, must practice hard
3)Soo, alhamdulillah, had my breakfast, only drink plain water...
And This time Khai approached me first. Good
When practice ended, khai rushed home without waiting fr me, he said he taking train.
Soo, i went bck home alone, like biasa, music accompanying me.
4)When abt to reach jP, i saw khai sitting at
The opposite side. He cheat my feelings. Haha, soo, we went back together..
He said he missed me alot. And we had a small chat at my opposite block until 10pm.
I shared eerything to him. Then we went home.
5)shuk text msg me whether i was asleep anot, when i replied, he dint reply. Then sis came home and told me that
They bump into him under the block. She said that he kirim salam at me. Then, he replied me back, and, we chat2 until going to 2pm. He apologized for being harsh towards me. Im happy that we are friends back. Allah really listens to me.
Thats the 5things that happened to me that made my day!
Alhamdulillah!
Love,
N'ASI
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