Hate it when i woke up from a PRECIOUS DREAM

Sooo, last night i had a fight w chingu, and i don't know what is wrong w him! He kept nagging at me otp, dalah sound like chinaman, hp rosak tak dengar. He said he's dissapointed w girls like me nowadays, wth man???? Then he keep ungkit2 abt last time. I know la i always so bossy and stuff, but dah terjadi whutt. Hais😔
So after the fight i hungup the phone and continued watching SMTown concert in SEOUL. Soo dissapointed that i had to stop at Shinee's part performing Sherlock, because ipod battery drained out. And, i went to sleep.

Sooo my dream went like.........


I was in the building (the same building i dreamt last time) looking for Fairul's house. I think i have to return him some CD i borrowed. (OK I DO NOT GET THIS PART). Blahh..blahh..blahh..

cut to --

Chingu invited me to Smtown concert. I do not know where he got the tix but im pretty sure that its not in SG. Because the concert was in a BIG HALL, where there is seats everwhr, only one small stage, more to like the one i watched, except its indoor and its a hall.
So we was queuing for seats, and unfortunately we get to sit at a few chairs away from the back door of the hall. We watched and cheered each and every grp that performed, but when it comes to SHINee's performance, i was pulled out of my seat, and go on stage because I WAS THE LUCKY ONE WHO GET TO PERFORM WITH THEM ON STAGE. !! OMGOD! Can imagine that????!!
So, onstage we danced and sing together, and suddenly, they started to sing this song that i don't know. And i stayed at one corner Cause i have no idea on what song they're singing and dancing to, then ONEW was like looking at me with that "what are you doing" face. Imagine getting picked to perform on stage w ur idol, and when ure on stage, they were singing and dancing to songs u never heard of. Confirm malu right? On stage sumore, when ppl looking. Haha, so, i go off the stage and a woman came to me and wanted to send me back to my seats, otw down the stage i saw smartist in a room, i guess its the backstage room for the artist to rest and stuff, so i begged the woman to let me go in the room, so she let me.
When i went into the room, i saw adil. Idky he was there! Haha. Then i saw EUNHYUK walking pass me to the other room, and behind him was my TEACHeR??? Haha, so i asked him why is he here, he said that EUNHYUK gve free smtown tix to him! So he is a friend of EUNHYUK! Omg, my wouldve been better with the thought that My teacher would intro me to EUNHYUK! OMG!

And that is when my dream ended, i woke up cause my mum's voice is too loud. Hais. But, good ending though. Haha. Still! I wish it could happen. Sekali if betul happened, eunhyuk jadi my bf! OMG!!! Hahah! Takle pcaya ! Haha.
Well its just a dream ya.. 😔😞😖😨😣😣😭

Its ok...

So gonna go to school and study Then off to TAG in the evening.
Maybe i should text chingu later. I hope he's feeling alright now.

Alright!
Adios

Hyq~

Cheyy, DATE ehy? Haha

date w Chingu jyeah!
What else? SUSHI!!!!!!!!!
Mmmdaaaapppp!
Then went to his house watch RM again!
This time, get to laugh allout!
Had fun yahhh!

Hmmm, comeone ching, i want one more date yahh!! This time must surprise me with......... KINDERMIX!!!
Ok? Love you! Haha!
Haha? Well, that dude still can't find my blogspot ya. Haha.

Ok, loveyoutoo chingu😘💋

Hyqi~

Have a safe journey SM artists

Atlast, smtown has ended.
No more sad.
I don't wanna cry anm cause i wasnt there watching them perform the first time on stage in SG!
Life gonna move on. One day, that very one day, im gonna meet them personally, without going for their concerts and whatsoever. My dream is to be friend w them.. Haha, k. Lame. But who knows right. InsyaAllah. But alhamdulillah kalau akan terjadi. YA ALLAH? Cannot imagine sia if i were to befriends w all of them! Haha

With all those emotional breakdown happening to me the last fewdays, i totally forgot that 22Nov was MrD's birthday. I suspect he's been waiting fr me to wish him. Hais, such a bad friend huh? WAEIYOOO???
But, i hope he could forgive me. Its not that i purposely forgot, but im just going tru emotionalBD and cant control, i cant think of anything else besides Sm! Hais. Forgive me ya?!

Soo, the SMs now preparing for smtown in Thailand now! WHOUUO i hope they had alot of fun in Here. Especially Hyoyeon, Eunhyuk, Suho and Chen! My darlings!!

Hmm..
Peace yo!✌

Bye

Don't stress me out, i just wanna watch PITCHPERFECT

Hmm, mind my latest post, it supposed to be published last week, but ended up its in my draft. Haha BABO!

So hello! I woke up at 14.20 today, and i slept on the floor. Gave Mardrasah a missed, why, because i badass i like that! Haha, nahh, im just tired+ i overslept ok!

Yesterday, suppose to be my best day ever, since i've submitted my FYP, ontime, and i no need to stress out anm. Only that i really hope that presentation will be going smoothly, amin! But then tummy gave problem. Haha. Then watched RM w amsyar at le lib while waiting fr MrD to fetch me as he asked me out for a movie date. Aite, PITCH PERFECT !!

Soo, everything was alright at the begining. But when MrD started to ask me abt my blog, whoa, my STRESS camebck. Cmon. Its just my blog why do u have to be soo sensitive abt it. I made him cry, MORE STRESS! Like whoa! I really dunno what to do or say, i just want everything to be ok, and us to have fun since i dont need to stress abt my fyp anm. So i just kept quiet., we went around Jcube, and he kept quiet all the way. And im just gonna go w the flow then. Then he started to shout at me, like seriously, u wanna start a fight again? DOUBLE MORE STRESS, Kau apalagi i had enough sia, dont care alr, go toilet stay there, cause i was soo pissed off and my day couldnt get any worst. Tsk3. So i went out , met him, masuk theater, and he gave me this baby blue care bear. Haix, like seriously, i dont need a bear to cheer me up. Besides, i have TOO many carebears at home alr, especially the blue one. Soo, ok, watch PITCH PERFECT, atlast something that can cheer me up!

And it WAS SUPERBLY AWESOME! I missed TAG alot! I miss singing acapella! Guess that i have to comebck cause i've finished my FYP.

Well, we kept quiet all the way to JE INT, i told him no need teman me home, but still, despite the Fight we had, i still thanked him for today, atleast a pitch perfect can really cheer myself up. Thanks D.

Well, that should be all fr yest, now, i wanna go back sleep k!

Goodnight!

Insomnia😢😣😖😞😓

Its 1.45. I cant sleep. I keep thinking of Chingu. How could he? I need him, but where is he? Im just dissapointed and sad cause i thought that he would always be there for me eventhough he has a gf, and im his chingu. I keep thinking that he used me and treat me like a toy. Why? I trust him alot, i've forgiven his past doings. But why he left me just like that? I cant stop thinking? Where is he? Why he dint reply me? He dont need me anymore? He dont care about me anymore? Why is he ignoring me? He's trying to avoid me? Fishing tell me what did i do wrong? I only told him that i was dissapointed cause he ignored me in sch.
Chingu , i would always say this to myself after sending u a message,
"if he is meant to be my bestfriend forever, he would reply to this text, if he's not, then he will regret after what he did and come back to me, but at that point, i'll surely forgotten about him ",
Last night you replied, but then till now u dint, so i dont wanna say anything. Im not sure of what is going happen later in the future. But Till now i have the urge of texting u, but inside me said i have to be patience, replied u twice, but both u dint reply.
Well, Only Allah knows, and only He knows how i feel now.
Its ok if i had to cry every night, i did that when we first broke up too. So now, i've got to stay strong and endure, insyaAllah, Allah is always there for me. He'll Make me strong enough to handle this problem, Amin.

Bad english, dry eyes, period cramp, badmood.
Im just tired.


Goodnight.