Hmm, mind my latest post, it supposed to be published last week, but ended up its in my draft. Haha BABO!
So hello! I woke up at 14.20 today, and i slept on the floor. Gave Mardrasah a missed, why, because i badass i like that! Haha, nahh, im just tired+ i overslept ok!
Yesterday, suppose to be my best day ever, since i've submitted my FYP, ontime, and i no need to stress out anm. Only that i really hope that presentation will be going smoothly, amin! But then tummy gave problem. Haha. Then watched RM w amsyar at le lib while waiting fr MrD to fetch me as he asked me out for a movie date. Aite, PITCH PERFECT !!
Soo, everything was alright at the begining. But when MrD started to ask me abt my blog, whoa, my STRESS camebck. Cmon. Its just my blog why do u have to be soo sensitive abt it. I made him cry, MORE STRESS! Like whoa! I really dunno what to do or say, i just want everything to be ok, and us to have fun since i dont need to stress abt my fyp anm. So i just kept quiet., we went around Jcube, and he kept quiet all the way. And im just gonna go w the flow then. Then he started to shout at me, like seriously, u wanna start a fight again? DOUBLE MORE STRESS, Kau apalagi i had enough sia, dont care alr, go toilet stay there, cause i was soo pissed off and my day couldnt get any worst. Tsk3. So i went out , met him, masuk theater, and he gave me this baby blue care bear. Haix, like seriously, i dont need a bear to cheer me up. Besides, i have TOO many carebears at home alr, especially the blue one. Soo, ok, watch PITCH PERFECT, atlast something that can cheer me up!
And it WAS SUPERBLY AWESOME! I missed TAG alot! I miss singing acapella! Guess that i have to comebck cause i've finished my FYP.
Well, we kept quiet all the way to JE INT, i told him no need teman me home, but still, despite the Fight we had, i still thanked him for today, atleast a pitch perfect can really cheer myself up. Thanks D.
Well, that should be all fr yest, now, i wanna go back sleep k!
Goodnight!
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Insomnia😢😣😖😞😓
Its 1.45. I cant sleep. I keep thinking of Chingu. How could he? I need him, but where is he? Im just dissapointed and sad cause i thought that he would always be there for me eventhough he has a gf, and im his chingu. I keep thinking that he used me and treat me like a toy. Why? I trust him alot, i've forgiven his past doings. But why he left me just like that? I cant stop thinking? Where is he? Why he dint reply me? He dont need me anymore? He dont care about me anymore? Why is he ignoring me? He's trying to avoid me? Fishing tell me what did i do wrong? I only told him that i was dissapointed cause he ignored me in sch.
Chingu , i would always say this to myself after sending u a message,
"if he is meant to be my bestfriend forever, he would reply to this text, if he's not, then he will regret after what he did and come back to me, but at that point, i'll surely forgotten about him ",
Last night you replied, but then till now u dint, so i dont wanna say anything. Im not sure of what is going happen later in the future. But Till now i have the urge of texting u, but inside me said i have to be patience, replied u twice, but both u dint reply.
Well, Only Allah knows, and only He knows how i feel now.
Its ok if i had to cry every night, i did that when we first broke up too. So now, i've got to stay strong and endure, insyaAllah, Allah is always there for me. He'll Make me strong enough to handle this problem, Amin.
Bad english, dry eyes, period cramp, badmood.
Im just tired.
Goodnight.
Chingu , i would always say this to myself after sending u a message,
"if he is meant to be my bestfriend forever, he would reply to this text, if he's not, then he will regret after what he did and come back to me, but at that point, i'll surely forgotten about him ",
Last night you replied, but then till now u dint, so i dont wanna say anything. Im not sure of what is going happen later in the future. But Till now i have the urge of texting u, but inside me said i have to be patience, replied u twice, but both u dint reply.
Well, Only Allah knows, and only He knows how i feel now.
Its ok if i had to cry every night, i did that when we first broke up too. So now, i've got to stay strong and endure, insyaAllah, Allah is always there for me. He'll Make me strong enough to handle this problem, Amin.
Bad english, dry eyes, period cramp, badmood.
Im just tired.
Goodnight.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Presentation and CRUSHINTOPIECEOBIA
Ehyyoo! Presentation of our first cut was trulyy "ohmyeffingtummyacheandiwannagoandpee" kinda thing
Ya, soo, too much story from zo, *dugh
But the funny thing was, before we present, when the other grp was presenting i cant stop thinking of my trip to USS!
Shuuut its been 2 days alr, freaking miss uss dude! UKNOWTHAT!
Thanks to afiqmokie(abg).
Soo, about the reshoot thingy, zo asked me to ask MrYasmin abt the EQ thigy and ya we went to the other side of the block. So ahgirl, and shankar was with me, and i saw three guys from my 'crush' class(uknowiRABON), soo, i was talking to ahgirl abt what happened yest(crushfollowedmebackontwitter), and suddenly she ask "is that him?" OHMY, it was him, i dint notice it was him. That three guy walking towards us.
Haiyz, they were at the vending machine, so then we walk back slowly at the locker, i notice, they walk slowly too, OHMYGOD what is happening, then when they passed us, 'crush' kena punch on the chest by one of his friend,( ithinktheywerejokingaround), and i glanced and i saw His eyes, looking at me, OHMY! Eventhough it was dark there, but i can see it. He's smiling when kena punch, and he look at me, still, WHATISHAPPENING?!!
Did he like me too?? No?? Haiyzz. Why give me hope?? He make me think he like me uknow. HaiyZzzzz...
Ya, soo, too much story from zo, *dugh
But the funny thing was, before we present, when the other grp was presenting i cant stop thinking of my trip to USS!
Shuuut its been 2 days alr, freaking miss uss dude! UKNOWTHAT!
Thanks to afiqmokie(abg).
Soo, about the reshoot thingy, zo asked me to ask MrYasmin abt the EQ thigy and ya we went to the other side of the block. So ahgirl, and shankar was with me, and i saw three guys from my 'crush' class(uknowiRABON), soo, i was talking to ahgirl abt what happened yest(crushfollowedmebackontwitter), and suddenly she ask "is that him?" OHMY, it was him, i dint notice it was him. That three guy walking towards us.
Haiyz, they were at the vending machine, so then we walk back slowly at the locker, i notice, they walk slowly too, OHMYGOD what is happening, then when they passed us, 'crush' kena punch on the chest by one of his friend,( ithinktheywerejokingaround), and i glanced and i saw His eyes, looking at me, OHMY! Eventhough it was dark there, but i can see it. He's smiling when kena punch, and he look at me, still, WHATISHAPPENING?!!
Did he like me too?? No?? Haiyzz. Why give me hope?? He make me think he like me uknow. HaiyZzzzz...
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Congrats my love <\3
Hi, its been soo long since i last post this.
Well i got no one to share this with.
I can't stop thinking this but cry. And that is where i should start posting this, cause
hais, i couldnt take it anymore, no one, not even him knows what im facing. Hais
P.s, mind my english, cause it sucks and i'm still crying now.
It started out okay in the morning.. Got my nail done by ahgirl,
Pewdiepie w faruq, lepak w amsyar at library, but the next thing i found out,
Nat and him wasnt in class? So i was worried and sarcasticly text him whether he's having dating or something and then
My heart sanked and i cant barely breathe. He told me that they were skating together and well,
Nat accepted him as her boyfriend.....:'(
Well, i tried my best to not cry as amsyar was beside me, im thankful that he was
there, i gotta be strong as i know that Amsyar is one of my most best buddies who would cheer me up
when im feeling down.
So went to JP with him to find snowcap for his cousin, but we only saw the blue one which is my favourite! Endup, tak jadi belik, so went up to comics collection and HELL NO!
I CRIED CAUSE IT WAS UNDER RENOVATION!!! SHIT HATE THIS! That was the very first place i would go window shopping alone. Hais, now no more whic shop to go??? Walk around window shopping everywhere, and amsyar bought for me famous amos cookie and chocolate box, Kinder Friends!! Hais, waiting for that someone to give me the big one? I dont think i would get that. So he bought for me grape juice cus i was so thirsty. Hmm, without him by my side, i don't think i would'nt be able to control any tears flowing from my eyes. I wanna thank him for always being by myself when i feel down, eventhough he did not know anything about me and 'him' but he's always there for me.
But that was just temporary happiness with him, when it comes me being alone in my this room make me think about him again, and still i cant stop crying (still crying),. Why did i even give hope and trust him, all i get is heartbroken. Why did he do this to me? Why did he come back to me eventhough he hurt me alot in the past. Why did i trust him and let him come to my life in the first place? Why am i so weak? Why did i always get betrayed? Why can't i forget him after he left me hanging? I would always seek help for Allah swt, if i and him were not meant to be, please erase him off my mind. And now i gotta get strong . I don't wanna cry over the same damn thing.
Tomorrow is his bday? And i bet he's happy now, but not me.
Im sorry i gotta end here, i can't stop crying. :'((
Goodnight.
Well i got no one to share this with.
I can't stop thinking this but cry. And that is where i should start posting this, cause
hais, i couldnt take it anymore, no one, not even him knows what im facing. Hais
P.s, mind my english, cause it sucks and i'm still crying now.
It started out okay in the morning.. Got my nail done by ahgirl,
Pewdiepie w faruq, lepak w amsyar at library, but the next thing i found out,
Nat and him wasnt in class? So i was worried and sarcasticly text him whether he's having dating or something and then
My heart sanked and i cant barely breathe. He told me that they were skating together and well,
Nat accepted him as her boyfriend.....:'(
Well, i tried my best to not cry as amsyar was beside me, im thankful that he was
there, i gotta be strong as i know that Amsyar is one of my most best buddies who would cheer me up
when im feeling down.
So went to JP with him to find snowcap for his cousin, but we only saw the blue one which is my favourite! Endup, tak jadi belik, so went up to comics collection and HELL NO!
I CRIED CAUSE IT WAS UNDER RENOVATION!!! SHIT HATE THIS! That was the very first place i would go window shopping alone. Hais, now no more whic shop to go??? Walk around window shopping everywhere, and amsyar bought for me famous amos cookie and chocolate box, Kinder Friends!! Hais, waiting for that someone to give me the big one? I dont think i would get that. So he bought for me grape juice cus i was so thirsty. Hmm, without him by my side, i don't think i would'nt be able to control any tears flowing from my eyes. I wanna thank him for always being by myself when i feel down, eventhough he did not know anything about me and 'him' but he's always there for me.
But that was just temporary happiness with him, when it comes me being alone in my this room make me think about him again, and still i cant stop crying (still crying),. Why did i even give hope and trust him, all i get is heartbroken. Why did he do this to me? Why did he come back to me eventhough he hurt me alot in the past. Why did i trust him and let him come to my life in the first place? Why am i so weak? Why did i always get betrayed? Why can't i forget him after he left me hanging? I would always seek help for Allah swt, if i and him were not meant to be, please erase him off my mind. And now i gotta get strong . I don't wanna cry over the same damn thing.
Tomorrow is his bday? And i bet he's happy now, but not me.
Im sorry i gotta end here, i can't stop crying. :'((
Goodnight.
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