Hi, its been soo long since i last post this.
Well i got no one to share this with.
I can't stop thinking this but cry. And that is where i should start posting this, cause
hais, i couldnt take it anymore, no one, not even him knows what im facing. Hais
P.s, mind my english, cause it sucks and i'm still crying now.
It started out okay in the morning.. Got my nail done by ahgirl,
Pewdiepie w faruq, lepak w amsyar at library, but the next thing i found out,
Nat and him wasnt in class? So i was worried and sarcasticly text him whether he's having dating or something and then
My heart sanked and i cant barely breathe. He told me that they were skating together and well,
Nat accepted him as her boyfriend.....:'(
Well, i tried my best to not cry as amsyar was beside me, im thankful that he was
there, i gotta be strong as i know that Amsyar is one of my most best buddies who would cheer me up
when im feeling down.
So went to JP with him to find snowcap for his cousin, but we only saw the blue one which is my favourite! Endup, tak jadi belik, so went up to comics collection and HELL NO!
I CRIED CAUSE IT WAS UNDER RENOVATION!!! SHIT HATE THIS! That was the very first place i would go window shopping alone. Hais, now no more whic shop to go??? Walk around window shopping everywhere, and amsyar bought for me famous amos cookie and chocolate box, Kinder Friends!! Hais, waiting for that someone to give me the big one? I dont think i would get that. So he bought for me grape juice cus i was so thirsty. Hmm, without him by my side, i don't think i would'nt be able to control any tears flowing from my eyes. I wanna thank him for always being by myself when i feel down, eventhough he did not know anything about me and 'him' but he's always there for me.
But that was just temporary happiness with him, when it comes me being alone in my this room make me think about him again, and still i cant stop crying (still crying),. Why did i even give hope and trust him, all i get is heartbroken. Why did he do this to me? Why did he come back to me eventhough he hurt me alot in the past. Why did i trust him and let him come to my life in the first place? Why am i so weak? Why did i always get betrayed? Why can't i forget him after he left me hanging? I would always seek help for Allah swt, if i and him were not meant to be, please erase him off my mind. And now i gotta get strong . I don't wanna cry over the same damn thing.
Tomorrow is his bday? And i bet he's happy now, but not me.
Im sorry i gotta end here, i can't stop crying. :'((
Goodnight.
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